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Sobriety is the foundation
No supplement, no program, no workout undoes a body that is still being poisoned. Everything else I built stands on the day I stopped drinking.
Field notes from a rebuilt life
Sober since 2018
Rebuild the
foundation.
I spent years buying old broken homes no one else would touch. When I started rebuilding my health, I knew I had to fix everything. I needed to tear myself apart and rebuild, from a blank slate.
Seven years ago I was 300-plus pounds and dying of alcohol-induced heart failure. Today I'm 190 pounds, sober, and stronger than I have ever been in my life. This is the brutal record of how; the food, the lifting, the relapse-proof thinking, and the parts nobody posts about. The truth.
300+ lbs · Heart failure
190 lbs · Sober · Strong
- Pounds at my worst
- 300+
- Pounds today
- 190
- Years sober
- 7
Pounds at my worst
Pounds today
Years sober
01 — The story
My heart was failing before I was forty.
I didn't have a wake-up call. I had a hospital bed, a swollen body, and a doctor explaining that alcohol had worn my heart down to the point that it could no longer keep up with my own weight.
What changed wasn't motivation. It was a decision to stop negotiating with myself — first about the bottle, then about the food, then about the way I moved. Seven years of unremarkable days, stacked.
Chapters
- 01The collapse
- 02Day one, in a hospital bed
- 03Learning to eat again
- 04The first barbell
- 05Year seven
02 — What I actually believe
Four things that rebuilt me.
Everything I write, film, or answer comes back to these. If it doesn't serve them, I don't teach it.
02
Strength is medicine
A complete lifestyle change fixed the machine from within. I just had to start living to stop dying.
03
Eat to repair, not to punish
Enough complete protein, real food, and no shame at the table. I stopped using food as a reward or a sentence and started using it as material.
04
Consistency over intensity
Seven years of boring, repeated days did what every dramatic restart couldn't. Show up small and unimpressive, on purpose, forever.
03 — Goals
It depends on your goals.
People asked how I lost the weight, how I got strong, how I got fast. Same answer every time: it depends what you're going after. Pick the outcome — the work underneath it follows.
04 — Watch
Latest transmissions
I film as I go — the hard mornings, the cravings, the work in the gym. New videos land here as they're posted.
Get told when they post05 — The letters
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A short email when I publish a new piece or post a new stream. What worked this week, what didn't, and nothing else.